CANCER

I'm supposed to die in a few months,
But don't worry, my friends,
I won't let any of you drop a single tear,
I won't let any of you be sad.
Cause I'll make myself an idiot,
I'll make myself selfish,
I'll make you all hate me.
So you don't have to worry.
You won't miss me when I go,
You won't cry, you won't care.
Cause I'll just do all the shit things that I can do,
So you all will just wish that I die soon,
And I'll make your wish came true,
I'll make you all happy when I die,
Cause I don't want to see any cry,
I don't want to see any sadnees coming from any of you.
I'm just tired of all this fucking exams and all that fucking doctors,
I'm afraid of this fucking chemo,
I'm afraid of losing my hair.
But I'm okay,
I'm okay because I won't let you suffer.
And you, my dear, my lover,
If you knew that I'm dying,
Would it make you fight for me?
Would it make you fight for... Anything?
Would it change you?
Would it change... Us?
But it doesn't matter now,
We are going to die because I'm dying,
Or maybe I'm dying because we...
I don't know, but it doesn't matter.
Maybe we could just make some surgery and...
I don't know... Sew our hearts back again?
Maybe we could spend my few months being happy,
But it would make you suffer even more...
No, I won't rest in peace if I do that,
So just let me suffer,
And anyone will suffer,
It's okay...
I'm going to die anyway...