SOULLESS

Some kind of a romantic date,
I suppose,
I asked her out to a dinner,
Some kind of a fancy restaurant.
We've been dating since a while, you know.
I took her at her place,
Give her my cosy smile
And a kiss on the lips.
I act like the perfect boyfriend,
But I'm not.
How could I be so soulless?
We eat and talk about many things,
We smile and a took her hand on mine,
I slowly pass my fingers on hers
And say how much I think she's awesome,
But I don't really think so.
How could I be so soulless?
And next we'll go to my place,
I'll make love to her like an animal on cocaine,
But I'm not.
We'll lay down, breathing, looking to each other,
And I'll say that I love her,
But I don't.
I'll write her poetry,
Give her romantic bithdays presents,
Chocolates, kisses on the neck,
I'll act like she's my whole world,
But she's not.
How could I be so soulless?
I just don't feel, I just don't like anyone,
I'm not interested on people.
But, somehow, I remember what is like to love,
I remember the steps,
The good and bad things to say.
I remember how to be good,
But I'm not any good.
I'm just an empty shell
With some memories of what I used to be.
I'm broken, torn into pieces,
Devastated, devastating.
How could I be so soulless?